I am MENTALLY EXHAUSTED!!!!

I donno what happen. I do things because i am doing it. I know i am doing it but i don have the feeling of doing that particular thing. Just like i don think anyone can understand the previous sentence that i wrote.

Went to CO yesterday, songs were easy, nothing challenging. Learned the songs, practice for the sake of practicing. There were no results though, in the sense that i did not put any feelings in playing the songs, i do not feel the song at all. Its just strumming of strings. My mind is in a mess, i hear many voices throughout.

Anyway. I feel not only mentally exhausted, but also physically. The event has left my brain cells at 1% of its original capacity, the 1% is for me to move around only. The post show, around 500 survey forms to be key in, waiting for more. I don need a brain to key the information in but it takes lots of energy to concentrate. I only completed 200 till today (since Monday). Taking alot more time than i expect. But i should be able to do it ba. Graphs and excel will not kill me!!!

The practicing schedule is horrible, i just feel so tired/exhausted after a day at work, i still have to crawl there for practice. I think my body will fail if i continue this. Thus, i decide to stop going for practice till i feel that my body has recover from the exhaustion of the event. And this means i will not be joining them for the Beautiful Sunday concert at Esplanade. Of course i want to perform, but i think that my health is more important. No joke if i faint one day, my nose illness is back even when i am on medication. I donno what will happen next, try to stay happy ba.

Going to rest le. Really hope no one will be angry and think that i am irresponsible for not performing. I really want to. I will be back for the next one, i promise. Thanks for the encouragement to join but i can feel my body getting weaker by the day. Sorry to all. Exhaustion will not kill my new passion for the event industry. I still want to work for the next event, work for that something that gives me huge sense of achievement that i never had before.

Shall end here. Byes=)